When I decided to take 50 Shades of Raee seriously again, I was beginning the final year of my graduate school journey. I figured that since I was only taking 2 classes – one of them being an internship, I’d be able to manage school full time, working full time, and building my blog up. Three months in, I found out how over my head I was… and I was over.
I was struggling so hard to balance it all and my desire over my sanity was taking over. I was so hell-bent on reaching the goals I had set for 50 Shades that I put my self on a daily schedule to maximize my time as much as possible. I’d wake up for work at 3 am and work on the blog for about an hour, then finish school work for another hour, and then get dressed for work. After working all day, I’d come home around 4 or 5 pm, nap for about 3 hours and be back on the blog or school work until I went to sleep at about midnight. That was my life every day for three months and I was exhausted! My exhaustion and lack of focused began to trickle into my actual job because any downtime that I had would be devoted to finishing school work or drafting a blog post. I was completely all over the place and quickly had to realize that chasing my timeline was holding me back.
Something had to go.
As much as I didn’t want to, and I really didn’t want to, I had to put 50 Shades on the back burner for the third time. I had to be completely honest with myself and admit that I was spreading myself too thin – I was so committed to the timeline that my lifestyle wasn’t realistic. Thankfully, my friend’s and supporters continued to encourage and push me to return after I finished graduate school. Unbeknownst to them, it was the push that I needed to keep 50 Shades at the forefront of my mind.
Often times, we tend to overexert ourselves in achieving the goals we set because when we don’t set them, we view it is a failure or a loss. And to be quite honest, it’s hard to get back on the road to goal achievement when you talk yourself out of winning. I was hesitant to pick 50 Shades back up after graduation because I thought my time had passed; but really, it’s just beginning. The beauty of a timeline is that while the past can’t be changed, the future can. I obviously didn’t meet any of the goals I planned for myself due to the unrealistic expectations of my timeline. However, at the same time, every single one of my goals will be met based on my timeline. There is no point in spreading yourself thin because when you do, you have nothing left to give; to yourself or to anyone else for that matter. It’s okay to extend your personal deadlines, modify your goals to fit your timeline or take a temporary pause on something you’re working on to allow yourself breathing room.
As you maneuver your way into the second week of September, I hope you take these thoughts with you and give yourself the necessary breathing room that you need!
Love and light ladies!